When Daddy had cancer, our lives seemed consumed with uncertainty and bad news beginning with him being called back to the doctor to repeat a test then being led immediately from the urologist’s office to the oncologist’s office down the hall. Then there was surgery to remove the football sized kidney, experimental treatments with no guarantees, and day after day of watching levels of things I had never known existed. During those months and then after his death, I forced myself each day to find blessings from God hidden in the haystack called cancer.
In such uncertain and stressful days, blessings were often found in small unexpected things. Whether it was in a number increasing that had been too low, a number decreasing that had been too high, a phone call or card from a friend, an empty couch in the waiting room for short naps, or just a snickers and a cold Coke from the vending machine. I looked forward to that bit of sunshine as I searched for those blessings each day.
Then when he passed away ten years ago today, it became more of a struggle to find those blessings because of the pain and grief, but still I searched. Believe me there were still plenty of moments when the glass was half empty instead of half full. Actually there were moments when my glass seemed completely empty, but God’s grace helped me to see that Daddy’s glass was completely full! He was enjoying the blessings of his new heavenly home. “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18
Although I miss him very much and wish today that he were still here with us, I am blessed to have had him for a father. He taught me the value of hard work and good character. He taught me how to use a hammer and nails so that when a bookshelf is delivered to my classroom with no instructions, I can still put it together. He taught me how to use a gun so that I can take care of unwelcome critters in the yard if necessary. He taught me how to fish so well that I can usually catch more than my husband but I try not brag too much.
I could easily focus on the sadness of today being the tenth anniversary of his death, but instead I’m choosing to concentrate on all the blessings of having him in my life. My glass is half full today!
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